There is no glass heart. I just don't want to let myself go.
Everyone has a glass heart at the beginning of their growth, afraid of this and that, and become cautious about self-discipline. There are a lot of bad things in life that are caused by their own cocoons. What we are often afraid to face is not fragility itself, but things derived from fragility.
everyone has a glass heart at the beginning of their growth, afraid of disillusionment, afraid of being criticized by others for their words and deeds, afraid of being attacked, afraid of this and that, in more and more fear, become sensitive, become cautious and self-restrained, become unable to face themselves accurately, so live in the eyes of others.
in fact, you can "encourage others to change what they have". Don't be unbearable by others, and don't always think that you are the focus of other people's eyes. In fact, not so many people spend time and energy to care about your every move, all because you care too much about others. Don't live so tired, think of yourself as a supporting role, don't imagine being the protagonist.
Liu Huayan is my college classmate, Virgo of Glass Heart. The day before my birthday, she gave birth on September 5th and I gave birth on September 6th.
I remember that during the first class meeting in college, the counselor teacher named me and said that I would like to get to know you. The counselor teacher took the roster and called the roll one by one on the stage, and the students whose names were called answered happily. When the name "Liu Huayan" was read, no one answered.
at this time, the counselor and teacher read "Liu Huayan" again, but there was still no answer, and some girls in the class began to talk about it, saying that the name "Liu Huayan" is so earthy, whether it is the swallow of flowers and swallows that feed cattle.
when the counselor teacher raised the decibels again and asked if there was "Liu Huayan", she heard a girl stumble and say, teacher, I'm here. At that moment, the eyes of the whole class focused on the corner position in the last few rows. This is also the first time I have seen Liu Huayan. Dressed simply, with a ponytail and a slightly fat figure, his face was as red as a ripe apple because of the attention of the students. As a result, she also has a nickname, "Red Fuji".
Liu Huayan was late for class the next day. She knocked on the door and called for the report, which once again caught the attention of the whole class. She wore glasses and held a pile of books in her hand, but she could not see her left hand, because she put her left hand in the middle of the book, as if she were deliberately hiding something. Liu Huayan didn't have many seats because she was late, and there were generally few people sitting in the front row. As I happened to sit in front of me, she came over and sat down beside me with her head down.
after school at noon, I told her that we would go to the cafeteria for dinner, and I would treat you. She still bowed her head and whispered thank you. I said, why are you talking like a sister Lin in a soft voice without looking up at me? before I finished, her face turned red again.
walking on the road, I asked her if your name was Liu Huayan. She said yes. Then asked me, when the teacher called the roll in the first class meeting, the students heard her "ugly" name, is it very corny? I said no, why do you think so much. No wonder you didn't answer at that time, because you thought your name was bad.
everyone goes through a turbulent and broken time, during which there is loneliness, confusion, crying, sadness, depression, extreme doubt about why they came to this world, doubt their own ability, appearance, figure, appearance, family, and even think of suicide. However, doubt will never solve any problem, it will only get you into a swamp that you can't climb out of.
when running for a class cadre, I asked Liu Huayan if she wanted to introduce herself. She said dejectedly, "forget it. There are many people who are better, more beautiful and healthier than her. She doesn't want to participate. She just wants to read and study quietly." I said, don't be so unconfident, all right? excessive lack of self-confidence is inferiority complex. I used to feel inferior, but now I want to change myself in college. After hearing these words, Liu Huayan's eyes were red and did not reply to me any more.
the end result is that Liu Huayan did not take part in the campaign, she just sat silently in her seat and applauded those who had won the election. However, an unexpected thing happened the day after the election.
when she went to class the next day, the girls in the class began to talk about Liu Huayan, saying that she always liked to keep her head down when talking to others in the dormitory, and she would blush like an apple if she was asked if she wanted to run with everyone to lose weight. While the girls in the dormitory with Liu Huayan were still talking about her, Liu Huayan came in, so the girls said "Red Fuji" was coming. After listening to this, she did not make any response.
in the same dormitory with Liu HuayanAfter the girl came in, she told other girls that Liu Huayan's mother was dressed in good soil and looked like a migrant worker. It is also said that when she holds a book, she likes to put her left hand in the middle of the book because she has a disability on her hand. The girls said these words in a sarcastic tone, and until Liu Huayan entered the classroom, they still had an unscrupulous discussion and said, "look, here comes Red Fuji."
Liu Huayan knew that the girls in their dormitory said she was lying on the table, and at this time, the girls asked me if Liu Huayan was crying. I said, don't say that. You don't know anything yet, and you still like to take the weakness of others as a laughingstock. It can be seen that your own quality is not much better. Those girls made a mockery of me with an indifferent look, saying that I like Liu Huayan, and don't think it's great to be the monitor.
at this time, Liu Huayan, who was lying on the table, immediately stood up, cried and told the girls not to deceive others too much, and then ran out of the classroom. Later, when I went out with her, I comforted her that I didn't care about it. I said that I used to care as much about what other people think of me as she did, but now I was more and more frustrated by these taunts.
Liu Huayan wiped her tears and said that because she had experienced pain when she was young, some scars fester in her heart and the cure is not good. She is afraid that others say that she is disabled, that she is fat, that she is timid, that she is sensitive and loves to cry, so she studies hard. She believes that knowledge can enrich her mind and stop her from thinking.
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others judge you because of your environment, experience, knowledge structure and experience, so you don't have to dress up according to other people's preferences.
some people say that no matter how strong people are, there will be times when they are lonely and vulnerable.
similarly, the most vulnerable people need to be able to face the ups and downs alone and learn to grow up. Life is so long, you will face more loneliness, pain, and fear in the future, so you should begin to practice your bulletproof skills now and try to overcome your glass heart. Society is very realistic, few people will pity your glass heart, you should learn to practice your heart from now on, do not be defeated by the reinforced concrete city.
now, Liu Huayan works in an enterprise and has found a boyfriend who can protect her in her eyes. She said that she had been with her boyfriend for more than a year, and if she could keep walking for another year or two, she would get married. She said that she was very grateful for the encouragement I gave her in college, which transformed her from an inferiority complex "ugly duckling" into a now confident and brave "white swan". I replied to her at the end of QQ that, in fact, I should be most grateful to myself.
A lot of bad things in life are caused by self-made cocoons. If you can regard those bad as sharpening your well-being, then you will get the most valuable life experience. What we are often afraid to face is not fragility itself, but things derived from fragility.
if you are also a child with a glass heart, please smash the weakness hard and learn to be strong and grow up. Because you are not brave, what about your dream? How to go in the future?