I am willing not to be liked by you.

/one /"willing" is to listen to your voice and your feelings.

I haven't written about love for a while, and I don't know why I become insensitive. But I tried to write, to get back to the feeling I had before, but the more I wrote, the more anxious I became, and the worse I got. I know that "practice makes perfect" sometimes becomes "practice leads to boredom".

I know what types of articles are read frequently and what types of articles are liked by many people, but I began to hate those old-fashioned romances and love, and I began to have no feelings for flirtatious lovelorn. I couldn't write.

finally came to scold me one day, and I realized that when a road was dark, I could only force myself to write false feelings, so I began to change direction from "other people like to see this" to "I like to write this".

but "change" means starting over, and "starting over" means that everything is hard to get off to a hard start.

but I am more relaxed than before. I am not as anxious as I used to be. Even if the manuscript is canceled in the end, I don't think it is bad. It was only at this moment that I realized that I was different from before. I thought it was good when others thought it was good, and I thought it was bad when others thought it was bad. After I was willing to write, my thought became: "that's what I mean, so I like it unconditionally." It doesn't matter if you don't like it, it's your business. "

I write according to what I think, and I willingly accept what you don't like.

I am finally out of the circle, the circle of many bystanders. When I am loyal to myself, when I don't care that others love and hate me, I think I begin to be free. I began to understand what Zhang Jingzhi said to me "writing should be something that can make you happy".

/2 /"willing" is to do something regardless of win or lose.

once I took up a job to write a story for someone else, and the fee was so substantial that I didn't realize it was a bad thing until I forced myself to write "Let the other person be satisfied and let the other person willingly pay me". In the end, under pressure, I became worse and worse.

call my mother. This uneducated and knowledgeable woman taught me one of the most useful lessons I learned during that time. "if you write for money, what you think about is money, and if you fail, you won't get money." You will not write such an idea. Only when you write for nothing can you willingly pay for it, because it comes from your ideas, not from the driving force of money. "

when you can do something regardless of winning or losing, it is willing.

then you will know that other people's opinions are only their business, and if you are willing to pay for them, you will willingly accept other people's likes and dislikes. Because it is your flesh-and-blood effort, so you will never hate, look down upon, or do not agree with it.

/3 /" willing "is to regard the people in the audience as the real" audience ", not the" protagonist ".

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YouTuBe has a couple of PVP lovers, (PVP: Prank vs Prank ) who often record daily life and easy and funny prank videos. They have been in love for seven years in this parody, but in the latest video episode, Jeana and Jesse announce that they need to be separated for a while. The couple said that what viewers see in the video is always sunny, but there are always some sad things in life.

when recording video becomes a daily task from sharing fun at the beginning, it means that they have to solve the problem of getting along with the two and show the fun side at the same time. Even though there is a rift, they still have to show it to everyone with acting-like skills, so that in the end, they can't stand it and announce their breakup.

it seems that people don't know what they want until they hate themselves.

an interesting thing comes to mind because I like the role of Sherlock Holmes very much, so I have looked up some unpopular little things.

in 1893, the original author Conan Doyle designed the death plot of Sherlock Holmes in a chapter story. After the story was published, many readers were surprised and angry, and some even insulted Conan Doyle. Readers' love for this character forced Conan Doyle to publish a new article later, designing a plot for the resurrection of Sherlock Holmes.

Sherlock Holmes is "dead" and then "resurrected". But no one knows that Conan Doyle wrote in a letter in 1891, "I consider killing Sherlock Holmes." Get rid of him, it's over. He takes up too much of my time. "

so the best way to do something is to have no purpose, and the best audience is to have no audience.

/4 /"willing" is that I know you won't like me, but I want to bet on myself.

one night we were at a selection meeting, and ZERO asked us, "what's the best state in love?" They all talked about the mode of getting along with each other, but I remembered something Xiao Bo told me on the phone.

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Xiao Bo's roommates are not well-off. After college, they rely on family assistance while handing out leaflets and delivering newspapers to make money, but Xiao Bo's roommates never spend the money on themselves and even order dishes that are the cheapest. On Valentine's Day, Xiao Bo finally knew why the roommate didn't spend any money.

because he specially booked a table in the restaurant that day, arranged a bouquet of roses and even opened a bottle of red wine, waiting for the "girl he likes" and planned to express his love to her. The belated girl told him after dinner, "I'm sorry to tell you so late, but I've been single because I've always liked my high school classmates."

I hurriedly asked Xiao Bo, "isn't your roommate heartbroken?"

Xiao Bo leisurely" he calmly went back to the dormitory and told us about it while smoking, and jokingly said that he finally had the feeling of being lovelorn."

"Why can he be so calm, obviously giving so much?"

"because he wants to." He did it with the determination to die, which means that his heart is dead. So he expected such an outcome for a long time, and just because he wasn't sad doesn't mean he wasn't sad. Everything he gave was not to impress the girl, he just wanted to let himself face the whole process, and he was willing to accept the bad result. "

in that boy's eyes, love is not a game, but a gamble. And he is ready to lose at the beginning, willing to gamble to lose, his mentality in love is the best, all pay is willing. He will not deliberately emphasize, "how much I have given, you must repay me." you can choose to give me a good card, or you can choose to love me as much as I love you.

but no matter which one you choose, I will gladly accept it, because I have shown my sincerity to you from beginning to end, I play my role well, and it is your freedom to do what you do.

"Liushui is very clear about the responsibility of sparing flowers, but the real identity is nothing but delivery."

if this trip is a pleasure, it will be a lifetime. "

to love someone and give willingly is not to ask for possession, but to live up to the sincerity of a child's heart is the right thing to do.

because I am willing to pay for you, I do not ask for anything in return, so I can willingly accept your dislike.

after really understanding the meaning of the word "willing", I find that some problems in life will be solved automatically. I used to be bitter about the annoyance of some people, but now I feel it doesn't matter.

is not because I am used to your dislike of me, but because I am willing to bear what it brings for what I have done. The "everything" here has not only good things but also things that don't look so good.

I still feel sad, but compared with before, I can heal myself through time.

I am now sitting outside the corridor of the dormitory, because I am too lazy to go to the library, and the dormitory is a bit noisy. The floor is cold and the computer is pasted. The thighs are a little hot and there are a lot of mosquitoes. However, I think of a song called "My Way", in which the lyrics are translated into Chinese like this:

I have loved laughing and crying, and I have been content and lost

now, when the tears are gone, I find that everything can face

I am not ashamed to say that I am not wasting my time, I go my own way.