How many years do we have to go through before we dare to believe that we are right?

how long does it take us to believe that our lives are empty but ourselves? I can't believe that in our lives, I'm right, I'm right.

before seeing Dragon fourth Milk, the so-called "low to the dust, and then blossoms", or "lying in the sewer, still looking up at the morning star" is just a description.

on the way to see long Si Nai, she had heard some anecdotes and gossip about Xiao Xi, saying that she was very old, that her wife had died, and that her child had died, and that such a lonely old man refused to live in a welfare home and insisted on living in a shack by the side of the road. She said that she liked gaudy things, filled her shack with fancy junk, and called her shack "Beijing Garden". It is said that her pet is a big white goose, named the goose, and then she still holds it all day long (holding a big goose? Said her shack was dirty and smelly. Look, I just think this old man is probably out of his mind. It's kind of pathetic.

when I see Dragon fourth Milk-- do you think I would say, is this old lady very normal?

No. She's just not normal.

everything she cares about is what we think is rubbish. What she despises is what we think is indispensable.

instead of water bottle cardboard, what she picks up everywhere every day is not water bottle cardboard, she picks up brightly colored rags to decorate her shack, like an old gardener bird of slow Oblivious, as long as the color looks good, no matter whether you are a diamond or a coke bottle cap, pick it up and make it a baby. Her baby has all kinds of shiny metal rubbish, red and green plastic products, furry and dirty dolls, a lot of plastic sheeting-I don't know what to pick up, a large piece of dressing mirror fragments, there is also a Feng Xiaogang and other body signature painting-standing there, the real Nima is a little scary.

she dresses like a tomato and hangs a pile of picked-up aprons. I don't quite understand why she is dressed in such a red match, but she looks good under the blue sky, and she is extremely inconvenient to move. Moving a little on the road, red like a warning sign is good for passing drivers to avoid.

long Si Nai is cleaning with a broom. instead of cleaning her shack, she only sweeps the road.

this time I didn't see how messy her shack was, because she could block her door with rags and couldn't get in. We asked her what to do with Rest, and she said to sleep outside. This is the Yulong Snow Mountain area of the Hengduan Mountains. Winter mornings are still very cold. She said it would be nice to cover more quilts. I complained silently in my heart, so I locked myself out of the house. As a result, she said that because the house had no windows, she could not see outside.

I only heard that she did not let the villagers who helped build houses block the cracks in her shack to see the night sky at night. I still don't know that she didn't even want to live in the house to see the outside.

but what's there to see out there?

when I think, awesome grandma, instead of paying so much attention to the outside world, why don't you try to clean up your life? A voice in my heart is saying, what makes you think that she is not cleaning her life.

my life is in my room. Her life. No.

I didn't see her "he goose" this time either. She said she died of a cold and was very sad. But she soon cheered up and showed us one of her favorite dolls. There is a button on the doll's head, and as soon as I press it, I begin to sing "Gangnam Style" (also awesome). She pressed it to us over and over again, taught us to press, taught us not to take it out in the rain-otherwise it wouldn't sound, and taught us how to dance to the music.

Yes, an old lady in her eighties swung clumsily with a doll and taught us how to dance.

most of her sheds are silk flowers. Some kind-hearted people bought it for her, and some bought it herself. Xiao Xi told me that in fact, she is not short of money to spend, she is a five-guarantee household, the village is also concerned, kind-hearted people and the government gives money. But-- "but she spends too much". To spend indiscriminately means that she never buys food and clothing and looks for food in the trash can every day, but spends all her money on flowers. And she has no idea of money, a flower, as long as she likes, a hundred times more expensive she is willing to buy.

in addition to flowers, she also buys a rechargeable listening machine, and after listening to the electricity, she buys a new one. The shopkeeper told her that the original one was not broken and that I could recharge it for you and continue to use it. She doesn't. She bought a new one.

in this respect, Dragon fourth Milk has the money to be capricious.

her goose is gone and has two more dogs. The white one is called "Stone million", the yellow one is called "Golden week" (which is also a good name), and the dog's shack is decorated with flowers.

this is the first time I have met Dragon fourth Milk, but Xiao Xi, they are not. They have long known the "abnormality" of Dragon fourth Milk. I thought I would buy food and clothes for long Si Nai, but I didn't think we were here to spray paint her house. The fourth wife of the dragon is madly in love.

otherwise? Persuade the fourth nanny to go to a nursing home? In the face of the abnormality of Dragon fourth Milk, our normality seems to be how abnormal.

after painting, we hung red lanterns all over the tree at her door. I hope she has a good New year. We have no tools, so we can only throw lanterns into the trees. If we hang them, we will be lucky. If we don't hang them, we will fall off. After hanging the lantern, I developed a great skill of projection, and I was probably taken for a fool by the drivers who came and went.

the rest of the paint on the wall, we sprayed warning signs on the road. I hope drivers will pay attention to it even if Longxinai is not dressed in red.

long Si Nai and her Beijing Garden, pay attention to Feng Xiaogang

I asked long Si Nai, how old are you, Grandma. Dragon fourth Milk said, 86!

Xiao Xi secretly smiled and told me that she said she was 86 years ago.

this is awesome. I only know that rockers can be 21 years old forever, with tears in their eyes, and some fairies can always be eighteen years old and always be like flowers. I don't know how to return it. Can always be 86, always like a flower.

before I went, I told Xiao Xi that I couldn't do public welfare. I can't ask for money, no money, no one, no strength, no face, no chest.

I just want to see other people's lives.

I didn't expect Dragon fourth Milk to be so abnormal. In the past, when I went out with other friends who did public welfare, I always concluded that I should pay more attention to others and fill the world with love and so on. The abnormality of Dragon fourth Milk makes me conclude that I pay attention to myself.

is there anything wrong with me and you, who is qualified to come out and talk about the life of the fourth Lady of the Dragon?

she is willing to dress like a Christmas tree, that is, she is willing to live in a shack rather than a nursing home, so she is willing to eat other people's leftovers, and then uses the money to buy useless flowers, so she is willing to pick up garbage and dance every day. What's wrong with her?

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so you, which one of you, is qualified to talk about me, what's wrong with my life?

I am willing to choose this way, I am willing to stick to my choice, I am willing to give up halfway, or I am willing not to hit the wall and not look back. What's wrong with me?

just like you can say that Dragon fourth Milk, childless, lonely, and miserable, living in the garbage is not worth it. She can also say that you have never had a life of heaven and earth in your life, never dared to forget your clumsiness to hear and dance, and never built a Beijing garden for yourself. You never dare to use all your money to buy flowers when you don't know where the food will be tomorrow. Just to make yourself happy, you dare not climb up the hill with a big goose in the middle of the night and look up at the stars all over the sky. How unworthy you are.

who is qualified to judge whether others are worth it but themselves.

once, Longsi's house leaked and the villagers wanted to mend it for her. She refused, saying she wanted to keep it and look at the stars.

once, long Si Nai fell asleep on the hillside. The villagers thought she was dead. When she finally woke up, she explained that the hillside was in good bloom.

long Si Nai forgot the time and the earthly value. She doesn't seem to understand anything, and she seems to understand everything too well.

my friend says she is so strong. I think she is not strong, strong is to know their suffering and get through it, she is not. Or not anymore.

she just blossoms and looks up at her stars. She forgets that she is in the dust and muddy water.

I couldn't ask her story or her dream. Her every word is only about the present, only her flowers, her dolls, her dog, her stars. Not a word, about the past, or the future.

how long does it take us to believe that our lives are empty but ourselves? I can't believe that in our lives, I'm right, I'm right. We have to go through how many years, how many tears, how much fear and gossip before we dare to believe that we are right.

when she left, long Si Nai applauded and said welcome.

by the way, we calculated the age of long Si Nai. She is 86 this year.

do you think she's confused?

maybe, she may have been confused for a long time, but as time goes by, she comes to the right time.

how many people who believe in God are praying for the power of peace even if they have nothing. I don't know if Dragon fourth Milk has ever prayed to any god, but she already has one. Maybe God doesn't necessarily come in colorful auspicious clouds. Perhaps, God comes with the colorful colors collected by Dragon fourth Milk.