A person has no hometown, and he is a stranger wherever he goes.

everyone is an isolated island. Together, your isolated islands are an island.

on the afternoon of March 8th, the company had a half-day holiday, and I was not feeling well for a few days. Just call Xiao Jie and ask him to accompany me to the hospital to check if he is anemic. On the subway, Xiao Jie suddenly said that there was a recent sense of frustration. I asked him, can't the furniture be sold? He nodded. The manager set a target for him that if he doesn't finish 100000 this month, don't stay here.

after arriving at the hospital, the doctor said that there was no blood test this afternoon, so it would be the next morning. She asked me if there was any genetic history in my family. I said no, the doctor said you'd better have an examination, just in case, check the thyroid gland again. After getting the list, I found that the whole inspection would cost less than a thousand yuan.

Xiao Jie asked me, do you still check? I shook my head. It was too expensive. It just so happened that I was hungry, so the two of us went to eat hot pot. When paying the bill, I took out my cell phone payment as quickly as before, and Xiao Jie stopped it. I'll do it this time. When I got home, I sent him a red envelope, which he confiscated. We have known each other for ten years, and if his life still does not improve in the future, I am willing to rush to pay the bills every time.

We are junior high school classmates, he is very handsome, with a pair of big eyes, an open mouth is Conan. At that time, when there was an Internet bar in the village, he would go to the Internet bar to play games as soon as he was free, but he was not so fascinated. He was in a daze in class. After listening for a while, he understood that his English was very poor, but he was admitted to County No. 1 Middle School with good science scores. I didn't pass the examination, so I had to go to County No.2 Middle School.

We chat on qq every two weeks. In high school study tension, Xiao Jie said that he was in a daze in class, and then came back to listen to what the teacher said, but how could not understand, in this way, the grades can not go up. However, he is in no hurry. He is slow-tempered. When he takes the exam, he only chooses what he can do, and he won't be sad after his grades come down. In his second year of high school, he talked about a girlfriend and was in a much better mood. During the half-day holiday every weekend, both of them go for a walk.

for poor students, learning art is more likely to go to college. At 03:00, he signed up for an art class to study painting. Before the exam, I found myself weak, but later I failed the exam. Soon after, he dropped out of school. My girlfriend took a college entrance examination, and the two never got in touch with each other again.

he has a sister who married early. His father has been in business and his family is well-off. His father also thinks that it is useless to go to college. If you drop out of school, you should drop out of school. Working early, getting a wife, and having children are the most important things in life. I went to university in Northeast China, and he worked in the Ordos. The Ordos was pitifully quiet at night. He looked at the novels on his mobile phone and looked at his eyes in a daze. He called me and said he didn't want to live this kind of life anymore. I think he has felt the loneliness of life since then. I always say I'll go and see you. In the end, he didn't make it. He went home and got married.

it was only later that I learned that he was married. When I went shopping for the Spring Festival, I happened to see him and his wife. He said, I wrote you a letter, and you haven't received it, have you? He simply believes that writing a letter means not only seeing each other but also exchanging inner connections. His wife is very white, about the same age as us, does not like to talk, and picks her nails with her head down. After his wife was pregnant, he went back to the Ordos, where he earned more. It was not until his son was born that he returned home to do some odd things.

not long after I came to Beijing, he called to ask about seeing a doctor in the hospital. It turned out that his father had a car accident. After the operation in the hospital at home, the wound was not properly treated and was infected, so he had to come to Jishuitan to see a doctor. He came to Beijing with his father and mother and rented a small house near Jishuitan. While his father was in the hospital, he consulted training courses everywhere and always wanted to study PHP or C++.

I didn't expect that orthopedic surgery would have to be done over and over again, spending all my family's money and borrowing more than a hundred thousand yuan. The perpetrator has no money, and if you detain him, he still has no money. Xiao Jie felt that he didn't hate the perpetrator so much. On the night of his father's accident, many people panicked. He calmly dialed 120 and took his father and the perpetrator to the hospital. He chuckled twice. If my sister knew that I had sent the perpetrator to the hospital, she would have cursed me to death!

my husband is an IT practitioner. When he eats with us, he always asks my husband a lot of questions. Do you need a high computer to learn C++? What kind of introductory book should I read? He stopped talking about the training course. He knew that there was no money at home for him to sign up for the class, so he had to rely on himself. So he came to Beijing, rented a small room, worked as a salesman in a furniture store during the day, and went home at night to read and study.

if you read in your hometown, people will think that you are a monster, and all the educated people in the village have gone out. He felt that he could not stay in the village and had to come out. If you can't stay in Beijing in the future, you can't go back to the village, otherwise, you will spend the rest of your life under the guidance of others. "look, whose son is still going to work in Beijing." Get on with it! It means it's better to stay at home. If you don't have any skills, you'd better farm at home and go to Beijing. "

some time ago, there was heavy snow in Beijing. We agreed to take a walk in an alley after work. There are many dilapidated houses in the hutong in our village, and I feel like I have returned to my hometown. One step at a time, creak, creak, after walking for a while, and then looking back, there are no footprints. You go to the depths of the hutong, snowflakes hit you in the face, you go under the street lamp, you see how beautiful it used to be. Along the way, Xiao Jie bowed his head and walked a long way, when he suddenly said, "my wife is a good man. She hasn't had a good life with me for so long, and so much has happened at home." Anyone else would have divorced you with the baby in their arms. "

Xiao Jie's wife leads the children to live. His mother's family, recently addicted to computer games, will not want to contact Xiao Jie, two people do not call once a month, his wife will not ask him how he is doing in Beijing, he does not know what to talk to his wife. Life just let nature take its course, I said, you can't let nature take its course, you have to take advantage of the situation and take some initiative.

but what initiative do I have? Don't I also rent a small room, busy every day, pushing and shoving forward with time? When I was in a bad mood and tired, I only told my mother that she would give up after a few words of comfort. After a while, my father will call me to talk about my daily life, accompany me and stop asking me about my business.

Life is actually like this. It is not as good as we thought. It has no big house, no dream a night, and will not wake up naturally. Beijing is not as good as we thought. After heavy snow, it will not become Peiping. I've been thinking about leaving, but even if I go somewhere else, I'm still a stranger. Like Xiaojie, he can't go back to his hometown. He can only grow savagely like a plant. When he is tired, he will ignite his desire with a torch. After a smoke, he will always be the one who ignites himself. I don't know when it will end. I wish I could see the ending earlier.

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there is one more thing that I almost forgot to mention.

the phone number of the emergency contact left by Xiao Jie to the intermediary is mine. He didn't intend to keep it. Once, he saw a courier in a car accident on the street, lying on the ground pitifully. He was worried that the same thing would happen to him, so he asked the intermediary to add an emergency contact.

I asked Xiao Jie, do you know what is the unbearable lightness of life? He didn't speak, and I shut up and fell silent.

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this article is about what is going on around me. I have read all your comments. It turns out that it is not easy for everyone to live. Hug!

the reaction of many netizens is very negative, so do their reflection, I can't help but feel a little uncomfortable. I asked my love if I shouldn't post this article. He said, no, everyone is an isolated island, you isolated islands connected, is an island, maybe they can find a little warmth from here. I think what he said is reasonable. When I read your comments, I will feel from the bottom of my heart: I am not alone.

recently, I was watching "it is better to eat Tea when I am alone." the author is also miserable. After her divorce, she had no job, could not afford to pay the electricity bill, and had no money to treat her son with congenital renal insufficiency. But then he opened a tea company, cured his son, and found a soul mate. Maybe we can learn from the author how to overcome the immediate limitations and difficulties and make life like it.

when we are young, we all have the desire to leave our hometown and live alone. Now I understand that these are not wishes at all, it is just a dream as thin as a cicada wing, and when this dream wakes up, we are becoming stronger! Dear ones, no matter how difficult life is, let's find something to warm ourselves up and stick to it. Maybe something good will happen.